I blew it. I was doing so well! I lost over 60 pounds! Then I gained almost all of it back. I feel ashamed and defeated. I know why this happened... it was stress-eating. No excuses, but that is one reason. The other explanation is as old as I am... I don't value my own self enough to treat myself better. I need to work on that. My weight issues really began when my husband "checked out" and got worse after my divorce over 35 years ago. Raising two babies alone... years of stress.... Now I feel my kids don't really care much about me (at least they don't show it) and that only confirms my lack of self-worth. But I have to shake it off and move forward. I must.
I AM IN CHARGE OF WHAT GOES INTO MY MOUTH!
I really want to make it happen. I just pray for strength and perseverance. Baby steps.... baby steps....