OPERATION SUPREME SELF-DISCIPLINE: Day 1
My last 15-20 pds to lose and I've been swinging up and down like crazy..give or take 6 pds!! I really need to get serious about this last push!! And in doing so, I want to confront--and tackle--the final challenge--DISCIPLINING MY MIND! MIND OVER MATTER!!
To be able to not succumb to temptations, to be able to stick strong and loyal to the commitment to my health, to be able to push and workout even on the days I want to bail whether there are real reasons to do so or not, to be able to prove to myself that my mind is strong and capable to achieving whatever I want...that I am limited by only my lack of persistence..and not a real challenge!
Today started off well and I did pretty good resisting several opporunities for damage. I had a coffee with cream and then set off to do my errands..and by 3 pm was starving..so had another coffee and got a subway salad with veggie patty. So far so good. Resisted little snack baggies of carbs while shopping; the starbucks pastries while at another store, etc. But then at night, I finally sucummbed and got self-indulgent and went and got chinese take-out!!! And decided to bail on working out too!!! Well, that's it though. That was my last day to do uncontrolled, unplanned chucking of plan!
From here on, 1) two solid weeks of Atkins---NO CHEATING. No carbs,alcohol, desserts, chinese, pizza, junk food, nuts, goldfishies and what not! 2) After that, I will allow myself fruits and slowly addign small amounts of good carbs... 3) finally by the end of november, i want to go to learn to have small meals and stop at a small portion, and have a balanced diet of all food groups to prepare for my month-long stay in India where you can't escape carbs!! 4) Working out at least an hour every day!! pushing myself daily...!! Classes, strength training, running!!!
This should be a new path of discovery. I really want to give this my best shot and see what develops!! Wish me luck! Here I go...!
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