So here I go, trying again- one week in this time. Down 10 pounds in five days.
Things are not great. Last summer our fridge in our rental home broke & landlord would not fix or replace. So we bought a smaller dorm fridge- like 3 feet tall. It never worked right- everything was always frozen or warm & half full of that frozen condensation. While cleaning it last week there was a whooshing sound & the next day everything was warm. So that’s awesome.
There are other factors contributing to why I don’t want to figure out a new fridge now- mainly because we are going to receive well, husband will- a death benefit from a sister in April or may. Hoping to move away from Tulsa back to OKC then. Been up here since 2017 & I’ve never felt more lonely.
BTW if you read this,I’m not looking for help to get a fridge. Just explaining my eating situation currently. In two weeks I am going to get a styrofoam chest, like yiu take fishing & do dry ice to keep cold things, which isn’t all month since we’ve been having to visit food banks since last May.
Anyways. A neighbor let me keep the little meat I could salvage in her freezer. So tonight is food bank bacon wrapped steak. I tell you whut- one food bank gives 2 week expired rancid gas station food & hockey puck donuts in a paper bag, and the other gives you steak. It’s crazy. They all like to give you pinto beans. Holy crap. So many beans. (Which are just carbs that make my neuropathy in my feet flare up. I don’t know if it’s something I was just ignorant on, but lowering my carbs helps my foot pains.) And sheet cakes & cookies from Walmart bakeries. Not healthy. Two of them have fresh food and a grocery store experience but with the 3 foot tall fridge it was impossible to make use of 4 gallons of milk & juice & veggies and fruits and meats when available.
So my main goal once I can get my weight lowered and a spinal tap for my idiopathic intracranial hypertension is to get a job. As it is I can’t sit up to even work from home because my feet swell & the growth under my sternum that interfere w my breathing. More on that another day.
Lol I doubt anyone made it this far, but I’m going to post. And keep going. Cause if my body won’t just give up, I need to loose this fat, cause I’m tired of my head pain, neuropathy, breathing issues, can’t bathe alone, can’t clean my house. If I’m still here tomorrow, I will not give up,
