nino66's Journal, 17 Jun 10

It has been a heck of week. Actualy the past couple of weeks havn't been great but oh my this week has been a doozy!!! Work has been CRAZY!!! This has been the worst work week I have had in I don't even know how long. I am so swamped I don't even know where to start. I keep getting interuptions. So I have not been able to get on here much. Have at least been trying to enter my food and do a quick run through of journals. Then Sunday we were at my husband's family reunion and his aunt had a massive stroke. It was aweful. She was just fine, talking to everyone and smiling. She got up in front of everyone and said grace before we ate. And then all of a sudden about 10-15 minutes after she said grace she just slumped over. Since Sunday she has had 3 strokes. Yesterday her daughter called us and they have discontinued all IV's and treatments and are giving her morphine for pain and we are just waiting for her heart and body to give up. So sad. She is such a sweet lady. And to top it off one of her daughters is blind and has some mild retardation and she has cared for her all her life. They have a big family but she has always been the care giver to this girl. She is an adult now but she is taking it very badly. They had her in the ER 3 times yesterday because she kept getting so upset she would hyperventilate. They have her on some nerve pills now. They are already talking about looking into an assisted living apartment for her. This will be best for her but it will be a hard adjustment.

And then to top it all off my husband has another new medical problem. Some of you know I have talked about what a rough past 1-2 years we have had. He has had 3 stents put in his heart and had an ablation done to his heart. He has a degenerative disease where his neck and back are fusing together and it also causes bone spurs on his back, neck, and hip. He is in so much pain with that. He can't work because of the pain and they won't do any procedures to help the pain because the heart doctor says he is too high risk right now. So we have to wait until July 9th to see if the heart dr. will release him then to so the back dr. can do something to aleviate the pain. And now he has been having problems with his right eye. He has had two episode where his had a solid black blind spot on the center of his eye. It has gone away but when it does his vision is very blurred. We went to a ophthamologist yesterday and they did some tests and for one thing he has cataracts. I know that isn't the worst thing in the world but he is on 50 yo. The worrisome thing is that the episodes he has had is because he has something wrong with his retina. They think he has a hole in his retina and fluid is leaking into his retina and in the back of the eye. He goes to a retina specialist next Tuesday. It is just like what else can happen? I am getting really worried about him because I don't know how much more he can take. He is only 50 years old and keeps saying that he is an old man. He is not. But I know he is frustrated.

I had been looking forward to this weekend. We are suppose to go to Indy. I am President of our VFW Ladies Auxiliary and my sister is going to be our district president this next year. Saturday she gets sworn in at our state convention. We know alot of people there and it will be alot of fun. And I want to be there for my sister. I am very proud of her. But now with everything that is going on with his aunt I don't know if we will be able to go. My sister will be so dissappointed. Of course we have alot of meetings we have to go to but there is a lot of partying. Free food, free drink, and exchange for us helping out in the hospitality room we are going to get to stay with my sister and brother-in-law for free. I really need some fun but things can't be helped. We'll have to see. From what I understand they have alot of great food and it sounds like things I can have (baked chicken, roast beef, veggies, ect.). But if we do go I am going to bring some snacks for me just in case.

On a positive note the scales showed a significant weight loss this morning and I am so excited. I havn't seen anything in weeks. But I am not going to record until tommorrow. That is always my official weigh in day even though I weigh alot more than that. I am hoping the scale is the same or even better but the way things are going for me I am not holding my breath. But I am definitely hoping. Sorry for such a long journal entry. Just alot going on and it feels good to get it out. I don't like talking about things too much because I feel like we have so much going who really wants to hear about it all the time. But I feel like I can come on here and journal and get things off my chest. I hope everyone is doing well. Keep up the good work.

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1812 kcal

Fat: 126.34g | Prot: 138.94g | Carbs: 35.70g.   Lunch: ranch dressing, egg, MUSHROOMS, deli chicken, lettuce, cheddar cheese, cucumber, FLAX MEAL. Dinner: olive oil, mozzarella, heavy cream, onion, spinach, tilapia. Snacks/Other: cheddar, Pepperoni Slices, Carbmaster Raspberry Yogurt. more...