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I've been bad..and I don't even have a reason!
ok, i'm slowly letting myself go down the path of self-destruction, and have to pull myself back before it's too late! I even wanted to evade journaling so as to completely avoid stuff, but am forcing myself to write...Here're the confession-points:
1) didn't wake up at 6 am--again!
2) didn't work out in the morning,
2)Breakfast was fine, and lunch would have been fine too--but wanted to go grab a spoon for my lunch, and instead got tempted into buying the pizza at the work-cafeteria,
3)and ate this pizza--instead of my healthy, homemade lentil soup,
4) thought I'd come home and workout--even changed into my gym clothes to do so--but then I sat down to check email, and then later to get some work done, and promised to go to the gym AFTER that, and then had dinner, so thought I'd go two hours later, and now it's 11 pm--and I still haven't gone--so it's too late to do so now!
5) On top of that, even though I had reached full points for today, and even though I wasn't really hungry, I grabbed a healthy choice icecream bar from my freezer at 10 pm!! Too late to be eating anything!
Ok, so that's the list...I'm a little nervous that I'm not even gonna try to salvage the situation at this point, as I have so many damaging situations coming up, that I'm thinking, why even bother to try?! For instance, tomorrow at lunch we have more pizza being served; in the evening I have a winetasting/cheese thing to go to; and day after tomorrow I have dinner plans in the evening...so on saturday, I should not even expect to see a loss!!
On the other hand, I can keep a good control from this point on--and even if I don't see a loss, I should still be able to prevent a gain! But how?! I still have to go to the wine-thing tomorrow, and the dinner-thing on Fri---and no matter how carefully I select, I'll definitely see a gain on Sat morning! I can't even decide anything now...I'll sleep on it, wake up early and work out, and let the day work itself out...
Today's meals:
Breakfast: cereal and soy milk (3)
1 rice cake (1)
snack: 1 coffee with cream (1), and 1 string cheese (2), edamame (0.5)
Lunch: an 8-inch, thin crust margarita pizza (12?), coffee with cream (1)
Dinner: lentil soup (2), and 2 rice cakes (2),
post-dinner: healthy choice icecream (2)
Total points: 26.5 (and today was supposed to be a very low point day!!)
I'm out of control!!!! And getting harder to get back on the horse!
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